December 2010
1 post
Don't Deny What You Are
Be yourself and don’t let other force you to keep them happy. It’s you’re choice, not theirs for being who you want to be. Though it’ll sadden those along the way, it’ll become even more sad for those who don’t know who you no longer are. Don’t deny the ways you’ve followed, and become someone better that won’t hide behind the...
October 2009
2 posts
Let's Put a Smile on Even if it is Fake
As said before in my last post still stands, though I am trying to fill up my schedule to clog the hole of being lonely. I realize that the time I get home there is no one to talk to who wants to talk or it’s someone I don’t want to talk to…
I’ve recently gone through so much things and touched upon the past, deleting it and wishing maybe it might’ve been better if...
Oh Such Trivial Matters
I guess it hasn’t wanted to sink in fully to my heart yet of the event currently. I’m wondering something though of what happened after. I cried but my chest recently feels as though it went numb and I feel nothing. I know when to show emotion, thus the only one at the moment is laughter and happiness. I don’t want anyone anymore to know what’s behind the door I...
I want to hold your hand
I’m kind of upset at the moment, but it’s whatever i’m guessing…I put some things up to not remind me of the past or what’s going on now. I deleted things that remind me of it too…when the time comes i’ll put it back into the memory and on my shelves. By deleting it, I don’t have to send so many things, i’ll be sent one when he feels like he...
May 2009
1 post
Thought from today at school
Thought of the time where I remembered my name. So that’s what it means I thought to myself.
I quietly remember the differences i’ve had from the world and wondered why I seemed to be quite so very different than all the rest. I saw myself inside a fisheye view and saw no one was there, when I looked down in fact people were.
April 2009
9 posts
“Sometimes I wonder what it would be like for everything inside me that’s...”
– Michael C. Hall as Dexter Morgan
Sweet Ecstacy in the Bedroom
“Sweet Ecstacy in the Bedroom”
Running through the hall laughing with the false smiles,
They run the two do,
Into the bedroom giggling and starting to touch,
Starting to kiss things go onto the bed the sound is turned up,
On top the boy is and bringing the girls legs up around his hips,
A condom he tears and puts on,
Fucking her he does only to stop every so,
Turning her over...
Masquerade, Masquerade
“Masquerade, Masquerade”
What is this?,
Who are you?,
Every face I see I don’t know who’s who,
Looking around I was alone,
As soon as I began to dance I was still alone,
As I began to dance I saw their faces,
The group of masks with half masked faces,
I wondered how can someone only have half a mask?,
I danced toward the group,
They invited me in like I was one...
Eye of the World
“Eye of the World”
This is the world I see,
In the darkness of this eye,
This eye can see all,
Your emotions,
This eye may do many things I do not know of,
It may put a mask on for me,
It may change who I am,
This world I see,
This eye can see them,
Those who hide under those masks,
This eye can see right through all your masks,
This eye can see for a reason,
For it has...
Roses
“Roses”
They’re beautiful in bloom,
They’re beautiful when they wither,
They come in different colors,
All so amazing to see together,
Each petal falling down when put into a vase,
The more there are the more wondrous they are,
In the moonlight they’re extrordinary with light and shading,
In a vase they do not look at beautiful as they do in a field of...
Crimson Moon of Dexter
“Crimson Moon of Dexter”
Oh the glorious moon,
It shines so crimson red during the night,
As I teach these monsters on the night what is right,
Slicing them up and cleaning them nicely,
Oh glorious moon my mask comes off to you,
You watch me always,
You watch my dark passenger appear at times like these,
The mask is slipping towards you,
Oh glorious moon,
Tonight is the night,
For you...
Indifferentiation War Within the World and...
Let us smile at the world around us,
And look at the indifferences of it all,
Move foreward within everything that you were lost in,
We’ll overcome it with everything that has happened,
Everyone laughs,
Everyone cries,
Form of human nature that co-exists in us all,
Though nothing beats being indifferent and seperating ourselves from the rest,
All in all we’re all the same...
Personal Quotes I've used
“Step into the surreal designs of the mind and touch what was
forgotten with the smiles of indifferences.”
“Forget the world and do as you wish. Nothing should stop you
from achieving the sky you wish to reach, even if it means getting
those wings clipped to keep you from going.”
“I’ll do what I do, and nothing will change the fact that the...
Bang Bang
“Bang Bang”
Aim for the target,
Shoot the gun until the bullets are gone,
Every shot’s noise seems to be louder and louder,
Every shot’s noise seems to make the heart race faster,
Bang Bang,
Goes the shot,
Hitting it’s target, leaving it’s mark,
Bang Bang,
Goes the gun,
Making a sound,
That changes all around,
The gun shot seems louder as it’s...